I’ve just had this cloud of emptiness and despair come over me. I feel so bad I ache. I feel like my chest is caving in. I just want power or control over my life. Seeing my mother in pain everyday, is heart-wrenching and what’s worse is, that there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I feel like a prisoner of my own problems. I wish I could take back control of my own life. But all this disability, work medical-leave, bullshit, is really making my life impossible. I’ve lost everything due to this ailment/injury. I lost my own place, my car, my independence, my freedom and my self-worth and sometimes even my sanity, to say the least! I feel like I’m just going through life in a fog, just to get by. I don’t know where to turn anymore. I feel like I’ve tried everything and nothing I ever do ever bears fruit or produces any results to change things around, while I’m tied to the legalities of this injury. It’s like the door is constantly being shut in my face and I can’t get the help I need. I feel extremely frustrated, depressed and desperate. Desperate for results and desperate to get my life back. I don’t know where to turn or what to do anymore. I don’t have the energy to fight anymore. I feel defeated.